Only a touch of Despair….

I lose my train of thought


but I’m ready to be an old lady  (ready or not)

only a touch of despair appears on occasion when I am reminded

that I am anIMG_5575 old lady.

why is this ( being an old lady) a negative?

when I forget

when I misplace

when I lose my password  for google  ( yup)

especially when I can’t find my words

like now

not being noticed can be a huge positive.

  A nurse said to me during a visit “when I get old I won’t shave my legs”  then she said ‘I can’t believe I said that to you! Not a gracious thing to say to an old woman she is attending when she is much younger. No offense taken. So really……

Why should I have to shave my legs?  I look down at my hairy legs and feel like a rebel not bowing to convention and shaving them. At 75 no one cares if I shave my legs and now I don’t care either, though it took a little getting used to seeing them, so ingrained in our culture, we must have smooth hairless skin.  It’s these little annoyances that make me wonder if we have things right or if there are better ways to spend our lives.   And I’m usually in pants anyway, actually, if I wore more dresses I would probably shave them while feeling guilty at ..oh hell

Live out your fantasy,  be who you are, not who you are expected to be, surprise yourself.  I did!  I am an artist, a painter  I never thought to paint and now it is my perfect retired lady project. I’m very fortunate and have the almost perfect opportunity to follow my own advice. And what is my advice?  Just be there, pay attention to what makes you feel good and then find ways to do it.

Tomorrow is another day

until it’s not.

Practise what you teach!




Technology is Passing Me by

One of the greatest challenges I find as I am aging is that I’m being passed by.  My inability to read, learn and remember what I read is truly alarming.

I’m embarrassed that it takes me more time to complete a transaction than expected

I do dumb things


Some people are patient for a few minutes while my brain synapses slowly click into place..or not

so I take a deep cleansing breath and say to myself… IMG_2611

I can do this!



The Trouble with Old Folks

 is that not everything works as it did, or should!

And it’s not only the brain which can become unscrewed.

Other parts get used up, some parts can be replaced, others repaired. but they never work as well as they did.

Hearing aids, dentures and eyeglasses are part of the norm after a certain age.

Spare parts become available at great human cost, the death of one can mean life for another.

One day no doubt there will be miracle fixes but please pass me by so I can get on with my next lifetime.




there are days…….


There are days that I feel I have something to say and other times my thoughts are not clear enough to put on paper.

I think the thoughts should be clear before putting to paper so I’ll think some more.

Meanwhile, I’ll add a picture until my thoughts insist on being written. I loved


painting this!IMG_1032