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A Great Response! Thank You Karen!

This is a great response I got after my last post about the problems of aging, just what I needed to hear from an old friend even older than I! A good kick in the pants” I needed! I just have to share it here.

Hi Kathy,
I consider aging as a struggle that you must fight daily. Do NOT go quietly in the night saying “well I am old so I fall down.” Bull Shit. Say “Dumb Ass-look where you are going.” Oh yes, it helps tremendously to swear. Furthermore-part of the fight is to try to look good-makeup for the wrinkles, short flirty skirts for the confidence and every now and then have false eyelashes glued on.(They stay on for 3-4 weeks.) for good cheer. You must think POSITIVELY! I just started guitar lessons-they say it takes ten years to learn to really play-SO-I am looking at starting a rock band when I am 90.
It sounds to me as though you are a little down considering your recent incidents. Think positive-you were able to find your rv, you are independent, doing a great lifestyle and u r probably the envy of many dependent women.
YES!
Merry Christmas Kathy,

Karen

I love this!

Okay I didn’t go out to buy eyelashes but I did get some purple eye shadow! She is right. I don’t mind getting old … how silly to mind! I can make some improvements, just the other day a woman told me ‘it’s easy to let yourself go here, I looked around and saw I was the only person wearing slippers to the happy hour! I doubt she meant me, but she looked very put together. I’ll take all this into consideration and stop complaining but you know, it gives me something to write about!

Yeah, purple eye shadow! And age control daily cream by equate (Walmart brand cuz when we get old we are often poor)

I think I’ll get a guitar and start learning so I can join the band!

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I'm getting a little Worried about Myself

I’m doing really dumb things

Showing a lack of attention

for instance,

I bought a new light for the studio at Walmart but it didn’t get home with me, probably left it in the cart.

Left clothes in the dryer at the laundry completely did not miss them until I got a text asking me if I’d forgotten them.

But the worst thing I did

I dropped my ipad in the washing machine

together with the clothes, how could I have not noticed that? I take my ipad with me to do laundry (and I’d stuck it in the laundry bag) so I can play a game while waiting. But I spent the time talking to some people so I didn’t miss the ipad and didn’t know until I took the clothes out and found it, of course destroyed, If I’d spent the time sitting and waiting I would have noticed but I wasn’t in the room while it was washed.

I almost cried! Not so much for the lost ipad but for the circumstances of its demise.

I’m almost too embarrassed to write about it here but this is my life now.

So three things in 3 days

Dumb things that had I been paying attention would not have happened. I told my daughter to be prepared, I have aged quite a bit since I’ve last seen her. Not only mentally, I have some great smile wrinkles that are new, and fragile skin. But my bones are great, they must be because I took a nasty fall getting out of the RV last week and thought I’d done damage to my knee. It hurt like hell for awhile but is getting better everyday, no broken bones and a friend added a more stable step to my door that should avoid any more falls.

Falls are one thing that can really be a danger for old ladies.

My son bought me a new Ipad!

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Sexism

My smart car is a 2013

You would think that car builders would know that women drive cars too. So why don’t I have a mirror in the visor as the passenger side does? A simple thing, is it the same in your car? I just find it annoying and can’t find one to add. It’s the same in my RV, no mirror. I like to check my face before I get out of my car, don’t you?

Oh well, nothing to go on and on about, but really?

I’m told the White House Christmas tree has been cut in New Mexico and is on it’s way to DC with stops on the way and is stopping in Truth or Consequences today, I would have gone to see it this afternoon but I was in town this morning and it’s too far to go twice in one day. I wonder how it will be decorated this year. And really it’s just a big tree at this point.

While in town I did several errands and bought a light weight camp chair because now is a good time to go down to the lake and sketch trees, the weather is perfect to scout around but I get tired and there isn’t a place to stop and rest, now I can have a seat, it’s a simple thing made in China (of course) easy to put together. Too bad I gave away my backpack would have been handy. Tomorrow Charley and I’ll go to the lake and I ‘ll take a sketch book and watercolor pencils and enjoy the day. Expected temperature will be 65, so happy I’m here!

We have a pot luck dinner here for Thanksgiving, I’m thinking to take Ron Ponche because I’m not a great cook My sister-in-law made this for the holidays and if you got a bottle of her ron ponche it was much appreciated. I had her recipe for a while, it is made cooking the eggs and cream I remember and delicious! But here I’ll just buy a bottle of Rum and add to Rice’s Egg Nog which is pretty good, I like it. Will be better with spirits (Carta Vieja?)

I haven’t taken photos of our home lately and the light was nice so I took a few tonight,love my tiny space!

Charley is a little too big for his bed,his long legs are usually dangling out over the edge.

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Caballo New Mexico is the Best Place to Live

It must be.

We always miss the worst the weather offers.

It’s going to be a sunny 68 tomorrow

everywhere else looks mighty chilly or damn cold.

even snow.

I sat painting in my studio much of the day with my little heater on and the hot lights but didn’t paint anything much, just fun using craft paints on canvas paper, I’m still getting warmed up to use my good paints. Lately I use craft paints for the first layer and go to my fabulous fluid paints to finish, today I painted some cactus plants against a New Mexico sky. No photo yet of it but here is my work blending colors. I like it, it’s kinda cool on 16 x 20 and I painted another thing on the back! I’m painting on both sides, you’ll surely like at least one side and when you get tired you just turn it over! It’s a twofer! Anyway.

I just finished reading a biography of O’Keeffe, what an interesting life she led and lived for over 90 years. I want to go to Santa Fe soon, I believe there is a museum with her work there. I’m remembering the first time I went to Santa Fe. I went with the idea of studying Chinese Medicine, it was cold, there was snow. I had just left Panama so the stark change in the weather was such that I stayed just two days and left crying. I could not do it. I may wait til Spring to go, now that I remember it is colder there than here.Yeah, I’ll wait.

My road trip with Charley has been postponed til Spring. I realized that 4 days traveling to VA in my little car and another 4 days getting back home was not a fun way to spend 8 days. Then I heard about the frigid weather happening along my route and am glad I changed my mind. We’ll go in the Spring in my RV and hopefully I will be able to tow my car and take my time to enjoy the ride.

I’m reading 1000 Best Dog Training Secrets. I’m wondering if Charley is too old to learn new tricks, or even basic skills, he does know ‘sit’. I don’t know how old he is. He’s not a young pup, he never learned to play, not interested in balls….no interest in fetch, when we go to the dog park I tell him, find the ball find the ball where’s the ball and nothing. Exasperating. I’d play with him, but how to teach a dog to play?

Lots of commands to learn and teach, I think he’s teachable, I hope I have the patience to teach (and learn).

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Talking in circles

Life is either too thick or too thin

Where’s the happyspot,

can you tell me

maybe I have it and don’t realize it

I can’t enjoy it as I would

if I knew

it was in front of me

Maybe it’s behind me and I need to step out of my way.

so I can find it

Talking in circles here.

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We’ve got some Huge RVs in the Park

and there is my little GG. It’s okay, she’s my favorite but I’ll avoid seeing how the others live in their luxury rides, so I don’t compare theirs vs my GG. I’ll take some photos tomorrow, I’m told one is worth almost half a million $$$$$$. Nice.

I’ haven’t written much lately but we’ve been busy here. We take a Qigong lesson 3 times a week at 9 am for about 15 minutes to get the day started, lead by my neighbor for free.

Qigong (chi gung, or chi kung) is a form of gentle exercise composed of movements that are repeated a number of times, often stretching the body, increasing fluid movement (blood, synovial and lymph) and building awareness of how the body moves through space.

When you practice and learn a qigong exercise movement there are both external movements and internal movements. These internal movements, or flows, in China are called neigong, or ‘internal power’. These internal neigong movements make qigong a superior health and wellness practice.

My flower garden looks pretty, I’m thinking about a veggies garden behind my studio, I noticed on Etsy a seller for seeds for mini veggies that would be fun to grow.. just another project idea.

I have a couple interested in acupuncture I gave them a treatment today on my massage chair, that chair was one of my better buys.

Charley sheds like nobodies business. It’s not his fault I know. I’ve bought half a dozen lint/dog hair picker uppers and I try to keep up but my car is beyond any hope of keeping it hairless. Which brings me to the fact the Charley really doesn’t like traveling. I plan to go to VA for thanksgiving in my little car and it’s alooong ride (2000 miles) I have to find a way for him to settle in calmly. I think his previous owner never took him in the car, and weren’t very good to him, he shows some signs of abuse.

I’m confused, I’m republishing this but I think I already did but it’s not on my list of posts and it has already been viewed? Anyway, ignore if you already read it!

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Flan de la Casa

Have you ever laughed uncontrollably about something no one else thought was funny?

I didn’t want to forget to write this post idea so I made a voice memo to myself. I tried to add it here but haven’t been able, just as well because I am laughing so hard it I couldn’t speak and all that is heard is my hysterics you would have laughed too I’m sure! uncontrollable laughter about what?

As I was almost falling to sleep I got this image of my family. My son who was 8 or 10 in this dream-like state, he says I want hot dog buns. This never happened in real life and again I’m laughing. Hysterically all by myself.

then there is the time………with the family in the car going out for dinner and my daughter says she wants flan de la casa we all started laughing, but no one knows why it was so funny Even today I can still grin about it, I guess it was just the moment, even now it makes me giggle.

Then there is the time…… in Austin I was driving my sister and her daughter about to show them a bit of Austin and I couldn’t get out of the parking lot. Yeah big time hysterical laughter.silly ladies.

Yeah, none of those examples are really much to laugh about but all caused hysterics.

Hysterical laughing is almost frightening, there’s the sense of being out of control, tears rolling down your cheeks and then you probably look pretty silly. But you are laughing and that is good for your soul

(this needed some editing and made me laugh all over again)

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Stuck on Pause?

Charley being Charley

About being stuck. I’m not really stuck. I just have periods of great activity that alternate with doing nothing.

I read a lot, I alternate my reading with something of value to my brain with thriller books in between. 2 thrillers to 1 bio or history . I’m reading The Kingdom of God is within you, by Tolstoy perhaps an odd choice for one with little or no interest in religion but I like to know stuff, to know why I have little or no interest.

I ‘m having trouble getting into Don Quijote in original Spanish. Really a tough read for me, but I’ll come back to it. This is what I do because I don’t have television. Really happy I can get plenty of library books on my ipad. If I didn’t I’d probably be more productive….but less informed.

I have (had) a nice 24 x 24 canvas that I didn’t like how it turned out so I sanded it down and put a coat of white house paint on it, lacking gesso. I’ve been curious to use a new set of inks and thought to give them a try on canvas though I doubt that is the usual use for them. I liked how they looked with just abstract forms and beautiful transparency but I wasn’t happy with the center of the painting and tried to cover it again with more white paint, then I spilled the blue paint…….and then I spilled the black. then trying to get it all together I messed up the whole canvas. What a waste! Maybe I can do a do over again. tomorrow.

We have seen some beautiful huge RV’s here lately but most just stay a short time, the snowbirds haven’t arrived yet, early for them still. CJ (owner) has regulars that come every winter. I’ve been here nearly a year, time flies.

It was chilly this morning Charley wore a sweater, so did I.

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Miscellaneous Thoughts

Is Charley part horse?

Every time I say how well I’m managing my IC, I get smacked down. Or maybe I think I’m doing so well that I stop taking precautions. it is what it is.

My garden looks great! It has been raining and the winds have let up a bit, I’m thinking about making a raised bed garden behind my studio for mini veggies.

But I also want to upgrade my tiny bathroom with a tiny tub and replace the wall enclosure and that will cost a bit more than I can spend….oh yeah a new tiny sink too. And a new kitchen sink that I should have gotten when I changed the faucet.

Wants or Needs?

I have everything I need right here

human nature is to want more or better, i’m human.

I can’t remember if I told you that we went to Walmart, Charley wore his new emotional support animal ID thing and was super good walking around with me looking for the items I needed to unplug my stopped up shower drain, we didn’t do grocery shopping . A woman asked me what a emotional support dog does and all I could think of to say was that I’m old and live alone, he keeps me company.

I’m going to edit that remark and take a friends advise to simply say he gives me emotional support y mas nada! No more details.

Do you spend much time on the news? I do, too much time wasted it’s such a mess, we seem to have forgotten who we are, or maybe we are not who we thought we were.

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Another Beautiful Sunset

Pink sky at night sailors delight.

This blog has gone from an interesting ( hmm) RV travel blog and experiences of an old lady, to a stay at home old lady with a dog.

But that is what is cool about life, you never know what to expect when you let things happen instead of having a plan. I haven’t done any long term planning and just live by the seat of my pants accepting what comes next without much thought.

I don’t recommend this life style unless you have plenty of money. And health insurance.

I am just now, after living 76 .5 years, finding out about myself and what is important to me. Also my deficiencies. I am a social isolationist, I must be, I like my own company enough to not miss the company of others.

Usually.

It’s hard to see my grandkids grow up without me around but I don’t think they will forget that I was with them from birth for 12 years, hands- on- grandma. that was my role then. Now it’s different, I’m grandma- at- a -distance, still loving them everyday.

But I can bore myself.

To counter that I start a project and then I’m a happy loner with Charley for company, so I am not really alone. By the way, I received the ’emotional service animal’ collar,leash and jacket thing to ID him as my support dog. He looks very cute in it I’ll get a photo tomorrow. We haven’t used them yet but I’m running out of food and will have to go to Walmart soon and he can go shopping with me. I wonder how that will turn out, he is well behaved so far though he ‘s disappeared twice when off the leash and I had to search for him calling Charley- charley, soon I had 4 neighbors coming out of their RV and helping me look for him calling Charley. I have to be more careful, less trusting and keep him on a leash, we have a dog run so he can be off the leash while in there.

And now the temperature is dropping and I’ll be able to paint in my studio, I am a fortunate woman.