A Great Response! Thank You Karen!

This is a great response I got after my last post about the problems of aging, just what I needed to hear from an old friend even older than I! A good kick in the pants” I needed! I just have to share it here.

Hi Kathy,
I consider aging as a struggle that you must fight daily. Do NOT go quietly in the night saying “well I am old so I fall down.” Bull Shit. Say “Dumb Ass-look where you are going.” Oh yes, it helps tremendously to swear. Furthermore-part of the fight is to try to look good-makeup for the wrinkles, short flirty skirts for the confidence and every now and then have false eyelashes glued on.(They stay on for 3-4 weeks.) for good cheer. You must think POSITIVELY! I just started guitar lessons-they say it takes ten years to learn to really play-SO-I am looking at starting a rock band when I am 90.
It sounds to me as though you are a little down considering your recent incidents. Think positive-you were able to find your rv, you are independent, doing a great lifestyle and u r probably the envy of many dependent women.
YES!
Merry Christmas Kathy,

Karen

I love this!

Okay I didn’t go out to buy eyelashes but I did get some purple eye shadow! She is right. I don’t mind getting old … how silly to mind! I can make some improvements, just the other day a woman told me ‘it’s easy to let yourself go here, I looked around and saw I was the only person wearing slippers to the happy hour! I doubt she meant me, but she looked very put together. I’ll take all this into consideration and stop complaining but you know, it gives me something to write about!

Yeah, purple eye shadow! And age control daily cream by equate (Walmart brand cuz when we get old we are often poor)

I think I’ll get a guitar and start learning so I can join the band!

I’m getting a little Worried about Myself

I’m doing really dumb things

Showing a lack of attention

for instance,

I bought a new light for the studio at Walmart but it didn’t get home with me, probably left it in the cart.

Left clothes in the dryer at the laundry completely did not miss them until I got a text asking me if I’d forgotten them.

But the worst thing I did

I dropped my ipad in the washing machine

together with the clothes, how could I have not noticed that? I take my ipad with me to do laundry (and I’d stuck it in the laundry bag) so I can play a game while waiting. But I spent the time talking to some people so I didn’t miss the ipad and didn’t know until I took the clothes out and found it, of course destroyed, If I’d spent the time sitting and waiting I would have noticed but I wasn’t in the room while it was washed.

I almost cried! Not so much for the lost ipad but for the circumstances of its demise.

I’m almost too embarrassed to write about it here but this is my life now.

So three things in 3 days

Dumb things that had I been paying attention would not have happened. I told my daughter to be prepared, I have aged quite a bit since I’ve last seen her. Not only mentally, I have some great smile wrinkles that are new, and fragile skin. But my bones are great, they must be because I took a nasty fall getting out of the RV last week and thought I’d done damage to my knee. It hurt like hell for awhile but is getting better everyday, no broken bones and a friend added a more stable step to my door that should avoid any more falls.

Falls are one thing that can really be a danger for old ladies.

My son bought me a new Ipad!

My words are being Found Easier

I think writing has been an asset for me but spelling hasn’t improved much. Seems like if I type fast enough the words will come without much thought……. it’s when I slow down that I have problems. When I have to think………

It’s hot about 100 degrees this week, I have to keep a close eye on my plants, they are suffering the heat and the wind but I may see flowers and cucumbers soon if I carefully tend them.

Work on the studio progresses slowly, I was even out there painting yesterday and the AC works hard but tomorrow I’ll get the material I need to insulate and it should be comfortable. My new fabric is at the post office to be picked up too so I’ll have some busy days ahead, Happy for that.

I found something I had written 6 years ago and wonder who I was then and am happy that is not who I am today. I’ll share it.

My mind feels light, sluggishly languishing here empty

Get old become an inconvenience

My thoughts have no weight to hold them in

they are forgotten before they are recognized

lost in the void that is my mind with no exit

to embrace only half a thought is useless to me

get old become an inconvenience

when your greatest fear is to be unloved

to be taken for a foolish melancholy woman

then you are certainly a foolish melancholy woman

melancholy thoughts bring sadness

they do not serve you well

step away

free yourself.

Inside every Old Woman………

Is a young woman wishing to be heard

But life flows by so fast

almost without noticing, time has passed

suddenly you wonder

Why wasn’t I prepared to be an old woman?

Should I have taken a class?

attended a seminar?

read a book?

who would write the book?

‘How to be as old woman’

another old woman?

Are some things left better unsaid?

Do we have choices?

Yes, we have limited choices,

unlimited for those who decide

to live our best lives

whatever our age,

to contribute

write your own book

Ojalá (O hah lah)

I use this word a lot to express hope, it’s a word borrowed from Arabic toSpanish and I like how it feels on my tongue and seems to express just what I mean, except when it is not understood. So that’s why it’s here today. Feel free to use it!

I think I’ve listened to Bocelli’s cd SI about 4 times today, puts me in a reflective mood.

‘If only we could turn back time’

I used a mud facial that my daughter sent me some time ago, teal colored mud for 20 minutes, that much attention to my face is disappointing, the dry air here and spending more time outside in the sun has left it’s mark on my face , but then I am old, I don’t enjoy my wrinkles and sagging skin but here I am, alive and kicking down barriers and though I look pensive, old and unhappy, it’s all about the light and attitude.

quite a difference ! Which is my reality? A bit of both I guess, this means I must stay in the light and have a good attitude! It’s all we have now, what do you think?

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I Wonder if This Would be Easier if…….

love this image!

I’m not going to say it but you know what I mean.

This project of writing here, figuring out how to do all this is not easy for me. but I know its good for me, it stresses my brain, which is a good thing, I guess. That’s what they tell us old folk. Use it or lose it they say.

There are several things I’d like to learn how to do properly here on wordpress, How to move stuff around without losing my stuff. I guess I could take a class.

Bu I’d rather learn watercolor. Which I’m going to do tomorrow, I’ve never tried to paint watercolor, it’s another challenge.

I’d also like to know why my hands are turning white but whatever, I guess they are just tired of making melanine, or whatever. I’m looking very spotty, the joys of aging, and I don’t care que sera sera.

Don’t I look like a guru here?

Am I wandering> Can you just follow along?

Am I Loving It Yet? Yes, I’m loving it now

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Yes, I am loving this new life style!

But there is one part of myself that questions if this isn’t a selfishness on my part.  I’m not contributing anything but my thoughts to anyone and my thoughts aren’t worth much, even to me.  The freedom to do or not to do anything at all may just make me a lazy person.  What can I do to make better thoughts to share?  My daily activities are mundane, not much to share about so I have to think my thoughts and try to put them in words that mean something or express how this old woman perceives the world around her.

I once expressed to my husband (long ago )that I would like to spend some time sitting under a tree on a mountain all alone to think my thoughts. He found it hurtful to not be included under that tree.  Maybe that is what I have found here, though not alone, here I can be alone, and I can sit under a tree on a mountain if I so chose.

This is a perfect situation for me until it is not and then I’ll leave.

So far I have no desire to leave, is that because I have no place to go?

What doesn’t work as it should, I don’t Expect Anyone to do this for Me but I need some help Please!

IMG_0164What doesn’t work as it should, or at all, or need to remove/replace on my RV

The lights some don’t light up, some outlets don’t work
The leak above the cab.
The book shelf system

Install new door to water heater ..does it work?
The exterior dents and cracks fill in and clean
Finish the wood floor
Remove Bathroom cabinet
Replace water pump, I have a new one not installed
Weather stripping on doors?
Why fridge not working on electric power?
Wash and wax exterior, what kind of supplies do I need to get?

How to understand solar panel readings
Burned inverter?
Show me how to use meter

I don’t expect anyone to do all this for me, I just need instructions and some help.

Writing Daily, doesn’t mean You need to Read me Daily but………

I’ve decided writing daily is a way to help myself find and remember my words, think my thoughts and  spell my words.  It’s therapy for me and may be interesting to you to understand me, a 75-year-old solo woman on a mission to understand herself, choices I’ve made and  the changes that happen related to  growing old.

When I started thinking about this living option I was asked what I would do if I got sick.  I only have one health problem and whether it happens while on the road or at ‘home’ the treatment is the same, rest, diet and meds.  Same here or there.

Going on the road  has given me ample  topics to write about of interest to a few who stop by here to read my  words, I thank you but I am warning that the goal  for me is to write, even when I’m boring I will keep writing. I hope you will keep reading because it’s encouraging for me to see the stats and responses of my readers

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Ciao